I wish I had time or felt up to blogging every time something happens so it's fresh in my mind, but it doesn't work out that way. I'm going to attempt to remember everything that has happened since last week....
Last Thursday we took a trip to the Summit (an outside mall) to meet James for lunch and walk/shop. I took my MIL with me for help and for company. We ate outside at Qdoba and while James was inside ordering, several people swarmed around asking questions and telling us how cute they were. That made me happy :) After lunch we went to Old Navy and I got a little stretchy jersey dress to wear to my cousin's wedding. Then we just walked around and got some exercise. We did walk in a few stores but I left with just the dress so my wallet was very happy. Thursday night we went to Papaw & Mamaw's house (my dad & stepmom) for my belated birthday dinner. It was nice to get a homecooked meal and get out of the house.
Saturday night James and I were able to watch a whole movie without interruption because the boys slept almost 4 hours!!! So exciting.
Sunday night the boys slept 5 hours during the night without waking up. It was amazing to get over 4 hours of sleep. Thankfully, I didn't wake up anticipating their waking....I was able to sleep!
Tuesday I gave Lucas a bath all by myself without any help because James was taking care of Ethan after his bath.
Yesterday (Thursday) we discovered that Ethan can hold his head up for quite a while. James had put E on his shoulder and he just held his head right up with no problem. Today James did the same thing and E held his head up and pulled it back so that he was face to face with his daddy. It was so adorable. I have to get it on camera!! Lucas is our little gripper. He holds on to things like a little muscle man.
I don't remember what day it was but I tried on my engagement ring and it fit. It's still a bit snug, but I was able to get it on and I'm super happy. I took it back off because it does stick up off my finger so I'm going to keep it off for a while so that I don't scratch one of the boys. Until then my wedding ring goes solo.
Papaw & Mamaw are here right now and Papaw is holding Lucas and said he was holding on to Papaw's fingers trying to pull himself up. My baby boys are growing so much. It's amazing to watch! I promise to get new pics up asap. We're taking them to my cousin's wedding tomorrow so I plan to get tons of pictures. I can't wait to get pics of them in their little plaid overalls :)
I plan to take some time to write out all the things I've felt and what's going on with me as a mom, but I was so excited about this I didn't want to wait. I am only 4lbs away from my prepregnancy weight. Of course I have more that I want to lose. I'd like to go about another 20-25lbs. James & I discussed getting a gym membership. I just need to get the stroller out, hook them in, and walk walk walk around the neighborhood. When I push myself too hard, my incision area starts to hurt so I'm still trying to ease into it. I get excited thinking about getting back to a resemblance of normal. I know its going to take a long while, but it's exciting.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
A Blur
I have lots of things to post about but my mind is in such a fog right now I can't think straight. I still haven't taken the time to upload the pics from my camera either. I'm hoping to get that done tomorrow. The babies are asleep and The Goonies is on tv....time to attempt to rest :)
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
1 Month Old
I can't believe my precious little ones are 1 month(6/20-I started writing this on Tues but didn't get a chance to finish and post). I can't believe how quickly the time has past. It really doesn't feel like I was in the hospital in labor a month ago. It's amazing how much I have changed, how much our lives have changed. I'm so filled with love :) In celebration of our little brownies, we had 1 month old birthday brownies :)
We've had a few firsts during this 1 month. Very proud of them.
*I didn't document this but both umbilical cords fell off on my birthday, July 5th.
*Friday, during the day, Ethan had his first real smile. I was talking to him and he smiled a very big smile. It was in response to me, not to gas like the other little "fake" smiles we've been seeing. I teared up because it was just so sweet. He did it again Saturday night but daddy missed it.
*Friday night Lucas rolled over twice. We made sure both arms were out to the side and he sure enough rolled right over. Of course by the time I grabbed the camera he was finished.
*Sunday James clipped their nails for the first time. Man did they need it too!
*Tuesday was the 1 month check up which went well. Afterwards I went on my first outing without the babies. I went to Wal-Mart for about an hour. As I finished up, I was beginning to get sad and was ready to go. I also bought my first shirts (3) that were not maternity!! It felt great :)
*Wednesday they had their first down in the water bath. It went ok. I tried to film it but Lucas screamed too much.
I have a couple of new pics to post but I haven't had time to upload them.
We've had a few firsts during this 1 month. Very proud of them.
*I didn't document this but both umbilical cords fell off on my birthday, July 5th.
*Friday, during the day, Ethan had his first real smile. I was talking to him and he smiled a very big smile. It was in response to me, not to gas like the other little "fake" smiles we've been seeing. I teared up because it was just so sweet. He did it again Saturday night but daddy missed it.
*Friday night Lucas rolled over twice. We made sure both arms were out to the side and he sure enough rolled right over. Of course by the time I grabbed the camera he was finished.
*Sunday James clipped their nails for the first time. Man did they need it too!
*Tuesday was the 1 month check up which went well. Afterwards I went on my first outing without the babies. I went to Wal-Mart for about an hour. As I finished up, I was beginning to get sad and was ready to go. I also bought my first shirts (3) that were not maternity!! It felt great :)
*Wednesday they had their first down in the water bath. It went ok. I tried to film it but Lucas screamed too much.
I have a couple of new pics to post but I haven't had time to upload them.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
So Confused
Disclaimer: If you are family you may not want to read this because I will be letting out my feelings on what's happened and it may not be what you want to hear.
Maybe this isn't the place to talk about this, but this is my blog and I'm going through something and I just need to get it out. I found out yesterday that a family member committed suicide. I'm having a hard time dealing with it. It brings on a completely different set of emotions than just a "regular" loss of family. I'm confused, upset, heartbroken, angry, numb. I don't understand how someone can take their own life. I just don't. I guess I really don't need to understand it, it just is and I need to accept it, but how? I suppose anyone who would do that isn't in their right mind. This is what people keep saying. There are so many questions that just go unanswered. Of course the obvious is why? Why did you feel like this was the way? Why couldn't you talk to me or anyone else in the family? Were there any signs that we overlooked or even ignored? Why do it so another family member had to find you? Now they have to live with that imagine for the rest of their life. I could go on and on. I think the hardest part about it all is that my family member wasn't a Christian. No matter who tried to talk to them or what reasoning or evidence was presented to them, they were always resistant. I realize many people in this world don't believe, which is incredibly heartbreaking, but when you're dealing with your own family and death, it makes it so much harder. I don't want to believe this has happened. No matter what they were going through in this life, I can't even fathom and don't want to even consider the thought of what they're going through now. It makes me physically sick. I feel like the only thing I can do is just focus that much harder on my precious boys and soak in every single second of them.
If you wouldn't mind, could you please pray for my family? Please pray for peace and acceptance. Everyone seems to feel a bit guilty for not trying harder with this family member and a few are blaming themselves. It's just beyond sad.
Maybe this isn't the place to talk about this, but this is my blog and I'm going through something and I just need to get it out. I found out yesterday that a family member committed suicide. I'm having a hard time dealing with it. It brings on a completely different set of emotions than just a "regular" loss of family. I'm confused, upset, heartbroken, angry, numb. I don't understand how someone can take their own life. I just don't. I guess I really don't need to understand it, it just is and I need to accept it, but how? I suppose anyone who would do that isn't in their right mind. This is what people keep saying. There are so many questions that just go unanswered. Of course the obvious is why? Why did you feel like this was the way? Why couldn't you talk to me or anyone else in the family? Were there any signs that we overlooked or even ignored? Why do it so another family member had to find you? Now they have to live with that imagine for the rest of their life. I could go on and on. I think the hardest part about it all is that my family member wasn't a Christian. No matter who tried to talk to them or what reasoning or evidence was presented to them, they were always resistant. I realize many people in this world don't believe, which is incredibly heartbreaking, but when you're dealing with your own family and death, it makes it so much harder. I don't want to believe this has happened. No matter what they were going through in this life, I can't even fathom and don't want to even consider the thought of what they're going through now. It makes me physically sick. I feel like the only thing I can do is just focus that much harder on my precious boys and soak in every single second of them.
If you wouldn't mind, could you please pray for my family? Please pray for peace and acceptance. Everyone seems to feel a bit guilty for not trying harder with this family member and a few are blaming themselves. It's just beyond sad.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Getting Out
Early this afternoon I packed the boys up, along with my MIL, and went took a trip to BRU. I had just 3 things I needed to get so I left the 3 of them in the car with the AC on and ran in quickly. It was just nice to get out. Today was the first time I've driven since I was put on bedrest in April. I was a bit nervous, but it went fine. Tonight we're going to my cousin April's for dinner. I'm fine going there for an extended period of time b/c I know anything we might leave at home by accident, she will have. She has two boys so it will be fun to see them around the babies. I'm excited that we get home cooking (roast and potatoes) and we don't have a mess to clean up. Plus it will be nice to just get out of the house .
Another cool thing about today, I was able to get my wedding band back on. YAY!! My engagement ring still doesn't fit, but it's nice to have one ring off my necklace and back on my hand :)
Another cool thing about today, I was able to get my wedding band back on. YAY!! My engagement ring still doesn't fit, but it's nice to have one ring off my necklace and back on my hand :)
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Graduation
I have officially graduated from hospital granny panties to real underwear!! I'm so excited :)
(it's the little things that make us so happy)
(it's the little things that make us so happy)
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